I've had anxiety since I was a little kid. A low underlying worry that never seems to go away. Panic attacks began when I went to college, and continue to this day. Sometimes it is days in a row in a black hole, sometimes I know I can do anything I put my mind to. But always, always this this veil of (or entirely obscuring) fog and malaise.
I was diagnosed with Type 1 diabetes nearly 20 years ago. I cut out gluten 2 years ago, and then grains soon followed (corn and rice included) after discovering a quinoa allergy. Suspected IBS has caused me to remove anything in the FODMAP fructans category (onions, garlic, broccoli, cabbage, etc). Now I basically eat vegetables, meat, and try to get as much animal fat as possible. Soon to be exploring possible thyroid, adrenal, and leaky gut. Even with all the changes, the fog and malaise are still present.
I am going to give neurofeedback a try after reading about it in the book Primal Body, Primal Mind by Nora Gedgaudas. I've been on anti-depressants, anti-anxiety medication, tried counseling, completely turned my eating habits upside down... I'm not really sure what else to do, and am honestly feeling pretty desperate to get this figured out.
At my first session, we did a brain-map scan. This involved putting a very silly looking cap on my head and connecting wires from a computer to the cap. These read my brain waves during several open and closed eye minutes. A general brain "map" was output visually so we could see how my brain waves are working together and find patterns and imbalances.
I was diagnosed with Type 1 diabetes nearly 20 years ago. I cut out gluten 2 years ago, and then grains soon followed (corn and rice included) after discovering a quinoa allergy. Suspected IBS has caused me to remove anything in the FODMAP fructans category (onions, garlic, broccoli, cabbage, etc). Now I basically eat vegetables, meat, and try to get as much animal fat as possible. Soon to be exploring possible thyroid, adrenal, and leaky gut. Even with all the changes, the fog and malaise are still present.
I am going to give neurofeedback a try after reading about it in the book Primal Body, Primal Mind by Nora Gedgaudas. I've been on anti-depressants, anti-anxiety medication, tried counseling, completely turned my eating habits upside down... I'm not really sure what else to do, and am honestly feeling pretty desperate to get this figured out.
At my first session, we did a brain-map scan. This involved putting a very silly looking cap on my head and connecting wires from a computer to the cap. These read my brain waves during several open and closed eye minutes. A general brain "map" was output visually so we could see how my brain waves are working together and find patterns and imbalances.
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We met a few days later to discuss the map results. A portion of it is in the picture below. Long conversation short (not that I can even pretend to remember all the details)... it's like I'm driving with the gas and brakes at the same time. Metabolic issues are known to contribute to slow alpha wave channels, like the ones shown in my map (possibly making me "foggy" and not able to deal with emotional stuff). Issues that were pointed out in the brain map are impulsive behavior (that one surprised me), hyper-emotional, rumination, anger, self-deprecation (no surprises there), and worry. Cognitively, attention also showed as being a problem (it has been suggested by people close to me that I have ADD, no surprises there, either). I don't remember the last time I finished reading a book. Or really even finished a project... does cooking dinner count? So, we are going to start working on cognitive issues first, and do 6 sessions of neurofeedback therapy that will help me stay focused. First session is today, curious to see how it goes.
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